After Affects Of Grief
3 min readDec 6, 2020
- Less sugar and cream in my coffee
- No mayo on my burger
- If I lose my slipper, eyeglass or hair brush I do not go around looking for them. I simply buy new ones.
- When I Google search celebrities I begrudgingly check if they have lost a parent
- Any Youtube video I watch is date checked and notated in my head as either pre-death or post-death of my loved one
- I am really grieving unlike my sister who is happier today than when my mom was alive and my brother who is contemplating marriage. I am nowhere near…
- I want to roll into a Sonic the Hedgehog ball but I don’t want to release…
- I’d like to go out on a date now which is somewhat odd because I am asexual. I don’t find any of my male friends attractive. (if you are one of my male friends please don’t excite yourself because I won’t be dating you). Honestly who wants to be alone…
- Questioning the value of living a careful life. I’ve met people who worked extra hard to save enough money to buy a house in their home countries only to die of heart attacks in the taxi cab by the airport. And I have met unemployed welfare recipients “living their best life”, buying the most lavish of seafood at the local market while smoking tobacco daily well into their 80’s.
