Dear Mama
It has been a year and
a half since I have seen you
I really miss cooking with you in the kitchen
I want you to know I live alone now
I went from a family of five to a house of one
I have actually been hanging out with dad
You are shocked I know
I meet him and his wife every weekend
He ended up marrying one of his mistresses
When you died
She has been extremely kind to him
He has been sick lately and she wipes his ass sometimes
Every week I make him your exact soup recipe
He has been feeling better
You told me daddy loved me
But you never told me how
It turns out gambling is an addiction
Not so much a choice
We thought he did not want to hang out
With his kids
With every slam of the door he took
The children’s hearts with him
Mama it is true
He loves me like you said he did
It took your passing for our relationship to grow
I thought I needed you to breathe
I never did
I just needed God to hold my hand
And never let go
Mama daddy is not a bad man
And you were right he does love me
And I found the God in me
